Today is August 31st, 2020. In the last 2 months, every day between 11am-3pm, my brain would give up. It would become stuck. I would fall asleep constantly – at a bench in a park, on a bus, anywhere. Summoning motivation was taxing. Staying focused was hard. It is detrimental to my ability to function. … Read more😪
Still colors and soundsThe leaves are moving gentlyAnd the fan is seen.
Jing and I, walking in the warm late afternoon sun, with chai sleeping in his stroller, near Tai Koo Shing. I glanced at her, and the sun washed out the colors and contours of everything. At that moment, I remembered to be grateful. The 4PM sunwashes out contrasts on her facetill the end of time
Ah. Ok. I think I have a way to break the spiral of the morning struggle. Don’t start with the phone. Ok. Let’s see. What should the process look like? I need it for podcasts. Can I find another device to do that? Or will I be able to resist the apps? Will I be … Read moreIt’s the phone, stupid.
I laid down the matStuck, staring at the lights, stuckBroken, thoroughly. Today I skipped my morning routine. I broke it. Or I am finally broken. My streak was probably … a couple of years long. The riddle I am trying to solve is, if I have to have breaks like this, or are there other … Read moreBreak. Broken.
A line pulses, pulsesorderly and rhythmicallysays this, this, this, this
Jacob turned his back.Bang bang bang. Bang. Bang bang. Bang. A part of me died.
This has been a struggle that lasted much longer than I ever imagined. I don’t have an office, so I hop around a lot. Since the pandemic, 100% of my sessions are now online. 930-1200: Cafe Sort through notes on Drafts on my Mac. File and organise notes into TheBrain. Start writing ideas on Bear. … Read more💼 Work, flow, Aug, 2020.
These days, these pandemic / lock down heavy days, I have two types of mornings. Type 1: 430-5: Wake up 5-540: meditate 540-740: Breakfast, laundry, read, write Type 2: 430-5: Wake up 5-7: Exercise 7-720: Meditate 720-740: Breakfast, laundry, read. Why do I struggle with it? How am I struggling with it? First, I dread … Read moreMornings 🌄
Take a step abackReveal the breadth of the seaThe bare of the sky 退一步，海闊天空。