Month: August 2020

  • πŸ˜ͺ

    Today is August 31st, 2020. In the last 2 months, every day between 11am-3pm, my brain would give up. It would become stuck. I would fall asleep constantly – at a bench in a park, on a bus, anywhere. Summoning motivation was taxing. Staying focused was hard. It is detrimental to my ability to function.…

  • πŸƒ

    Still colors and soundsThe leaves are moving gentlyAnd the fan is seen.

  • πŸŒ‡

    Jing and I, walking in the warm late afternoon sun, with chai sleeping in his stroller, near Tai Koo Shing. I glanced at her, and the sun washed out the colors and contours of everything. At that moment, I remembered to be grateful. The 4PM sunwashes out contrasts on her facetill the end of time

  • It’s the phone, stupid.

    Ah. Ok. I think I have a way to break the spiral of the morning struggle. Don’t start with the phone. Ok. Let’s see. What should the process look like? I need it for podcasts. Can I find another device to do that? Or will I be able to resist the apps? Will I be…

  • Break. Broken.

    I laid down the matStuck, staring at the lights, stuckBroken, thoroughly. Today I skipped my morning routine. I broke it. Or I am finally broken. My streak was probably … a couple of years long. The riddle I am trying to solve is, if I have to have breaks like this, or are there other…

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  • πŸ”«πŸ”«πŸ”« πŸ”« πŸ”«πŸ”« πŸ”«

    Jacob turned his back.Bang bang bang. Bang. Bang bang. Bang. A part of me died.

  • πŸ’Ό Work, flow, Aug, 2020.

    This has been a struggle that lasted much longer than I ever imagined. I don’t have an office, so I hop around a lot. Since the pandemic, 100% of my sessions are now online. 930-1200: Cafe Sort through notes on Drafts on my Mac. File and organise notes into TheBrain. Start writing ideas on Bear.…

  • Mornings πŸŒ„

    These days, these pandemic / lock down heavy days, I have two types of mornings. Type 1: 430-5: Wake up 5-540: meditate 540-740: Breakfast, laundry, read, write Type 2: 430-5: Wake up 5-7: Exercise 7-720: Meditate 720-740: Breakfast, laundry, read. Why do I struggle with it? How am I struggling with it? First, I dread…

  • 🌀

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