I re-read what I wrote after last year’s concert.
This time around, I am not in HK to attend it. Nor is there, so it is going to be good. But so much has happened, and I have hardly had the time or focus to write about everything.
The school feels like it’s crumbling. It’s impossible for it not to struggle, given the circumstances. We are trying to run the school while raising enough funds and building the new campus at the same time. We are doing all of this remotely.
And the school clearly isn’t ready for us not to be there. It doesn’t matter why that is the case. The important thing is to try to survive and move forward.
The good news is, more parents are helping. We have parents supporting events and also helping with our operations. At the same time, we have more parents panicking, understandably.
I have many thoughts and ideas on how to move forward. But I also need to remember this is not my school, and I can’t let the rejection of my ideas get in the way of trying to help. I often get things mixed up. When my ideas are ignored or rejected, I take it too personally. I also keep finding innovative ways to bash myself, which needs to stop. And I crave recognition, which also isn’t helpful.
Most critically, I constantly want to give up, throw everything out of the window, and clear everything. Again, not useful.
I don’t think I need to find out why I am like this. I have a very good idea. Right now, it’s about accepting these thoughts and just keeping going.
At the same time, I need to remind myself of the good things—Nor, the kids, the UK, honey, mom, myself. i3, too.
I hope the gala goes well. I hope the school gets back on track. I guess we will find out.
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