Category: 4. Live Less Bad
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Same Shit, Repeated.
Sometimes I think we just go through life reminding ourselves of the same shit over and over again. Call your mom. Eat your veggies. Don’t steal. But our brains and souls are so scattered, we need to be reminded of the same shit over and over again. And how things resonate with us, when and…
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49
My reflections @ age 48. I have already written a lot about how the world has completely changed for us. I quitted CASETiFY in January. I spent all my time at the school, hoping to get it ready for us to hand it over to the team. Then the church bought our place, and we…
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Weaknesses
I still wish I don’t have these flaws. I am pretty sure they are indeed flaws. 1. Zero Poker Face I lack composure and wear every emotion on my face. Back at CASETiFY, there were too many times when my fully expressed reactions drove Wes crazy. Just this week, in a meeting with the funders,…
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Diary, Dramatized by AI
My colleague Flora shared that she would ask AI to tell stories about her own life. It’s like a diary on steroids. She feeds it random notes about life events and asks it to turn them into an exciting story. She says it’s fantastic because the writing helps her appreciate her own life more. I…
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What I Think About When I Eat An Apple
I sometimes eat an apple as a snack in the afternoon. Every time I am at the supermarket, I want a big Envy apple. But then I also know all I need is a big red apple. I don’t need the Envy apple. A big red apple would suffice. I know this because I have…
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Class of 2025 Graduation
Jing has graduated. The school survived 8 years. nor cried so hard with Maggie. And I stood on the side, witnessing everything. It’s emotional, magical, and hard. I feel lonely and anti-climatic. If every graduation is going to feel like this damn this job is going to be hard. The bad news is, these feelings…
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Fundraising Concert 2025
We just finished the fundraising concert for the school. The school is in a precarious position. Our lease is ending and we are looking for a place. Our 2nd graduating class is leaving the school soon. The team is close to fully formed, and the founders are transitioning into a new way of working. There’s…
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The Missing Knight
I think I have it wrong. Instead of trying to find ways to get me out of ruts, I need to do more of things that I think will help me fall into ruts less frequently. My wife was trying to figure out what triggered the latest episode of me being in meh-mode. She wondered…
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Contrasting Mental Spirals
Since I left my last corporate role and returned to working on our own Waldorf school, the thoughts that loop in my head have shifted. This contrast in how my mind spirals has helped me stumble upon ways to manage my mental health—and to make life less bad. At my last job, I had trouble…
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Three Fundamental Truths @ Jan 2025
Yesterday at the gym I had a sudden realisation. To be more precise, it was more like a sudden acceptance. I have been a lot more involved in the school. I don’t think I decided this very intentionally. Nor did nor and I talked about this. It was just something that kind of happened after…