Category: 4. Live Less Bad

  • Why Meditate? 為何打坐?

    To meditateis to unlearn our relationship with time, self, and then reality. 打坐是重新認識與時間、自己、和現實的關係。

  • Why I left Apple. Why I am trying to leave Work.

    I wanted to stop rationalising. I couldn’t square the dilemma. I was sick of the wrestling. The value of I was doing, from selling shoes to selling phones, needed more rationalisation than I could stomach. The “rationalized” values were at least “one order” away from what I was actually doing daily: Selling iPhones:{1st Order Impact}…

  • 😪

    Today is August 31st, 2020. In the last 2 months, every day between 11am-3pm, my brain would give up. It would become stuck. I would fall asleep constantly – at a bench in a park, on a bus, anywhere. Summoning motivation was taxing. Staying focused was hard. It is detrimental to my ability to function.…

  • 🌇

    Jing and I, walking in the warm late afternoon sun, with chai sleeping in his stroller, near Tai Koo Shing. I glanced at her, and the sun washed out the colors and contours of everything. At that moment, I remembered to be grateful. The 4PM sunwashes out contrasts on her facetill the end of time

  • It’s the phone, stupid.

    Ah. Ok. I think I have a way to break the spiral of the morning struggle. Don’t start with the phone. Ok. Let’s see. What should the process look like? I need it for podcasts. Can I find another device to do that? Or will I be able to resist the apps? Will I be…

  • Break. Broken.

    I laid down the matStuck, staring at the lights, stuckBroken, thoroughly. Today I skipped my morning routine. I broke it. Or I am finally broken. My streak was probably … a couple of years long. The riddle I am trying to solve is, if I have to have breaks like this, or are there other…

  • 💼 Work, flow, Aug, 2020.

    This has been a struggle that lasted much longer than I ever imagined. I don’t have an office, so I hop around a lot. Since the pandemic, 100% of my sessions are now online. 930-1200: Cafe Sort through notes on Drafts on my Mac. File and organise notes into TheBrain. Start writing ideas on Bear.…

  • Mornings 🌄

    These days, these pandemic / lock down heavy days, I have two types of mornings. Type 1: 430-5: Wake up 5-540: meditate 540-740: Breakfast, laundry, read, write Type 2: 430-5: Wake up 5-7: Exercise 7-720: Meditate 720-740: Breakfast, laundry, read. Why do I struggle with it? How am I struggling with it? First, I dread…

  • 安全了,又空虛了。

    昨日收到了新的護照。為期4個月的申請過程終於完結。我們一家總算有後路了。 真是既可喜又可悲。 可喜是老婆和我有幸有條件着草。真心感激我們父母。我們實在好不幸運。 可悲的,當然就是要走佬。作為香港人,我們從小就體會到,其實一切都是借回來的。而期望任何東西變得可靠、變得值得我們去依靠、去當作寄託,都是不實際的、不智的。 未來本來就是迷糊。而寄託,究竟是為面對未知的未來的錨,還是指南針?我想我心裡希望的是以寄託為錨,讓自己感覺穩定一點、安全一點。還是其實寄託更應像指南針,用來幫助自己有方向地飄流瀚海? 還是我完全錯了?還是我對寄託的期望和理解徹底錯了?

  • The Journey of Learning Colemak Keyboard Layout

    In summary, it was a change driven by the ego (I am special- I type with the most efficient keyboard layout), and adopting this alternative keyboard layout has some benefits that don’t outweigh the real life inconveniences. I decided to switch to typing using the Colemak keyboard layout from the more common QWERTY keyboard. The…