Category: 4. Live Less Bad
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How Do I Want To Feel in 2022
Let’s look back:In 2018, I wanted to feel more “in the middle,” “joyous from nostalgia,” and “useful more consistently.” In 2019, I wanted to “just do it.” In 2020, I wanted to “be in the moment more.” And in 2021, I said I wanted to feel “I am being responsible.” Specifically, I said, I need…
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Year 2021 In Random Moments
This is the final piece to wrap up 2021- a selection of moments that defined the year: The Bandwagon of 2021 The Change of 2021 The Shittiest Shit I Said I Wouldn’t Do But Did Anyway in 2021 The Most Sudden End of 2021 The Most Shamelessly Proud Moment in 2021 The Best Investment in…
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Year 2021 in Podcasts
In 2018, podcasts I listened to changed my mind on Big Tech, and I quitted Facebook and IG to move away from Big Bad Tech. In 2019, I dove into meditation and spirituality. In 2020, I began to feel hopeless for humanity but also began to feel hopeful after realising there were more similarities than…
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Routine – Sep 2021
Daily Routine: 5am: Wake up. Make coffee. freshen up. 5:30-6:30: Work out or Meditate 6:30-7:15: Walk 🐶 7:15-8:45: Get kids ready for school. Sometimes take them to school 8:45-9: Commute to cafe 9-10: Alone work- Write, organise notes, plan calendar 10-12: Continue work and or coaching 12-14: Lunch, chill, commute 14-16: Coaching 16-18: Spend time…
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Forever Cracked
Ever since that year, 2011, I was forever cracked, broken. I could not get out of this never ending worry for my health. I went on a no carb little meat diet almost 10 years. Then I fell into this on-going battle with binge eating after the 10 days silent retreat. I still struggle to…
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Rejected @ 45
I was rejected, again. Jeez, again, really? Seriously? At the age of 45? It sucks. It still sucks, and it is difficult to not think that it’s me who screwed it up. On paper, I cannot see how anyone would reject me- Good education. Pretty logical and uncomplicated career path. Good companies and titles. Not…
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Do you remember where you were on September 11th, 2001?
I do. I have a personal story of 911. I have my own narrative of how I participated in that moment in history. I was in Ann Arbor, walking down South State street. In the air, beneath the warm confident blue sky, a whisper of the dry Midwest cold to come. I have memories of…
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A Freak Show #Tokyo2020
I admit. This is a freak show. I am talking about the Paralympics. I want to hide it but this is how I really feel- This is a freak show. I would be pretentious if I claim to be very comfortable and supportive of the Paralympics games. I would be lying if I say I…
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Life Truths @10 August, 2021.
Strive to live honestly, not always happily. Strive to have what we need, not what we want. Strive for what is true, not what feels true. I need to remind myself things like this all the time. I also need to revisit them all the time, because I seem to suck at remembering them. Perhaps…
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CCP @ 100
Anything that generates a lot of internal resistance is probably something we should pay the utmost attention to. Understanding Communist China is one of those tantalizing things. On one hand, the naive part of me wants China to be good. This is not because I am Chinese, it is because we all are stuck on…